“There are older and fouler things than Orcs in the deep places of the world.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien,
I sent my story off to be edited this past Friday. I’ve been lingering…avoiding. “If I could just edit it one more time…” was the lie I told myself…for a few months. Three things happened recently that propelled me to attach and click send.
One, I’m watching my children grow up and make their own life choices. I am so proud of their courage. I couldn’t help but wonder, where is my courage? Sure, I’ve been courageous in different ways throughout my days, but it’s this plan of following my dream that has been hibernating. Heck, I even started a new novel so as to not send this current one off to be professionally edited.
Two, I decided to no longer ignore the harsh fact that if my kids are getting older– then so am I. And what the hell am I doing if not aggressively pursuing the dream I put on hold many years ago.
Writing is easy. Editing is easy. Everything is easy as long as it is in the nebulous world of “Why yes, I write stories.” After getting my story back and editing it– then I’m back in the rut of sending queries out to people who “don’t feel the story is right for them.”
But, if I keep answering my own queries this way, why bother getting up in the morning? Sometimes courage, a value I hold dear, is not attacking the dragon that is destroying my village but greeting the daily grind with focus and determination.
“Older and fouler things” manifest themselves in my life and I must take care to beat them back.
Three, this past Friday, my editor showed up at my doorstep with a bottle of wine saying, “Your send button is broken. I am here your story…if you’re ready.” My ray of sunshine showed up, thankfully, and carried away my book, digitally, with promises of “I will be in touch with my plan for your story.”
And now that I’ve sent it off to my editor, I am taking the day to read and sip coffee while life churns on around me and, for the moment, I enjoy being out of my rut after having checked off something rather important on my to do list.
Yay me, yay my editor, and yay my courage.
Older and fouler things: 0 My dream: 1